It has been a turbulent year to say the least for me. So many changes have happened that I could not have expected a year ago. I have grown as a man and have faced some of my fears with trepidation but seek to conquer the darkness that may lies ahead.
The relationship has been up and down with joy and heartache. We amicably and mutually agreed that it was time to split and to pursue our own health and goals. We are friends and there is still love but together there is a myriad of conflict and disagreement that is the downfall of the relationship.
At the moment, I have Keifer, our German shepherd, but with the his mother having purchased a new home this week, she will be going with him soon. I truly love her and know that she would be happier with him with a big backyard near the river and plenty of room for her to explore the world around her. She and he are so bonded that it is much more therapeutic that they be together. As I miss his company, she has given me the opportunity to focus on myself with her as an ever loyal friend. Her departure will be the next stage in my growth. I will know what it is to truly be on my own. This is a lesson which has been coming for a long time and I must face it headstrong and bravely. I have never been on my own. I have always lived with family, friends and recently with him for these past years. These are lessons in life that should be learned early in adulthood, I believe. It must be learned at some point.
Last year, I left NEC for a company in North Dallas which aggressively recruited me. It was a thirty percent increase, my own office, and minutes from my home. I was elated. I left the security and six year seniority of NEC to take a risk. Six months into the new job, I was laid off. I was devastated and beside myself. What was I to do? How would I pay for my house, and other financial responsibilities. Luckily I was given a 6 week severance, and I made looking for a job my job. As cliche as it sounds, I went to interviews daily, and studied to be prepared for the interviews. I was hired by a telecommunications company in Plano. I am so happy there and so grateful. Most in this economy have been unemployed for years. I found a job in a month. I’m in a laid back and relaxing atmosphere of intellectuals where I am challenged and rewarded for my work. What more could I ask for?
I have made new and responsible friends over the past year. I have met individuals who support me and are fond of me. I am part of an intellectual and stimulating circle of friends. I have reconnected with old friends I had not spoken to in years. Friends should encourage and support one’s growth. I now have a voice and I am now heard.
I stand before a vast ocean of possibilities. Near the shore the waters are calm and safe. I can wade there for a while where I feel safe but I do need to and want to go into the deep. There lies the beauty of exploration and the flora and fauna of life. I thank you for reading this entry and for supporting my journey. My name is Andy.